I would do ANYTHING to help my Dad!

In recent years, I have taken vacation days from work and have gone to Florida to:
-help my Dad set up new computers and transfer files
-been his HelpDesk when there have been technical difficulties (mainly user error)
-spent a week helping him get around and do his physical therapy after knee replacement

He has recently made another request of me. Though I am tired, taking on more work responsibilities, back in school, and want to save vacation days, I just don't think I can deny him this request. He called me the other day, and in order to maintain his platinum level status in his travel club, he must go to London......England, that is. He would like me to go with him.

*SIGH*

Once again, I will sacrifice for my father the way my parents sacrificed for me.

IALAC

"I Am Lovable And Capable" - IALAC
Frequently, this acronym makes me want to hurl. However, I'm making attempts to be more positive these days. Examples of being positive:

* I positively want to stop saying "asshat" after speaking to certain people on the phone.

* I positively want to stop saying that "Exercise SUCKS!"

* I positively want to love the price of Gas, but that one is out of my control!!!

Maybe I should start a positive thoughts of the week thread, or at least thoughts, or at least consider having a list of positives for the week...........maybe for the month.

I'm positive that is a good idea :).

How much do I LOVE......

**that I regularly have trouble finding my cell phone in my purse.

**that I drive past my Ex & his new wife going to or from work on an almost daily basis.

**that I look in the mirror and am surprised to find that I'm not cute anymore, just older and fatter.

**that my children are not in my presence every single day of my life.

**that others are "bringing sexy back", yet I brought it out back and beat the shit out of it.

**that a review of my "lack of love" life brings me to the revelation that I obsessed over one guy (NO...not my ex-husband) for the last few years and allowed myself to be hurt when it proved to be nothing.

**that I don't have porch furniture and can't sit out on my back deck and enjoy the change in the weather.

OMG Life has changed

1/2 tank of gas.......that's IT!!!! In one week!!!

I used to fill my gas tank twice a week when I was driving the kids 12 miles south of my house to school, then drive back by my house and go another 23 miles to work. Now, the kids walk and/or take the bus to their schools.

My son came home yesterday and told me that he loves his new school, and really likes having different people in his classes. He's finding his way around, and all's good.

My girlie is doing great, making new friends, be-bopping around. She told me last night that there is a dance coming up in October.....ACK!

Life is good. Sometimes, it's the simple things that make a difference.

The moose, the fish

Quick Idaho update:

No fish. When I told Ginny I couldn't catch any of the stupid fish, she said that might actually make them smart.

I only saw moose clumping through a meadow as I was driving across Route 90 between Montana & Idaho. They were too far to see very well, and they were on the opposite side of the road so I didn't get to stop and take pictures.

100 degree days to start the trip, big storm came through with 2 days of rain, temps dropped to 70. Wild weather patterns!

The vacation was amazing! Ginny had a blast with her cousin Amanda. They are the same age, going into the same grade, and can talk on the phone for hours. They are sisters at heart! I spent 10 days in Idaho. Prior to the trip, I was worried and thought to myself.....What am I going to do in IDAHO for 10 days???? I'm always worried I'll be bored. I read 3 books, fished a bit, hung out with family, went out for great dinners, and woke up to the most beautiful view every day.....even in the rain.

Pictures above: View from the deck, Drew at The Smetheram Wheel

Pictures below: Idaho on foot :)

I've discovered something...

You can't drive down the highway at 40 miles per hour and switch to reverse.

No, I did not learn this in the car, that is a metaphor. I learned this through experience with my weight. Last year, after some personal heartbreak, family stress, and other external problems, I had a medical issue. It's called THE CREEPS! I had the creeps, my weight was creeping, creeping, and creeping up. I gained 40 lbs over the last year. The Creeps really suck!!!

You can't go from steadily gaining weight to reverse and losing it at the same pace. One must first stop, get into neutral, then you can move into reverse and slowly back up. I started on Jenny Craig in March. Since then, I've not even lost a full 10 lbs. I have been frustrated, annoyed, and really angry with myself for not steadily losing 1 - 2 lbs. per week.

Guess what??!!?? I need to slow down, stop, get into neutral, then....and ONLY then, will I be able to go into reverse.

So, now I will be grateful for the 8 lbs. I've lost and the fact that I'm no longer heading down that highway at the maximum speed. I need to get comfortable with where I am so that I can switch comfortably into reverse. THAT IS MY NEW PLAN!

I am working on taking out some of the bad (fast food), and adding the good (Jenny Craig & salads). I've been increasing my fruit, and found a great salad bar near my work that isn't too expensive.

Here are some of the good & bad coming up:
When the kids are with me, I will have to get up at 5:00am to get Drew to the bus stop. That will suck! However, I will have a chance to get on the recumbent bike and/or balance ball with weights during that early morning time before I take my shower and get Ginny up to leave with her.
I start classes on Tuesday nights and will need to avoid the fast food for dinner in between work & class.

Happy I go with my stop & neutral positions until I'm ready to hit reverse. Good luck to me!

Please God.....Oh, Please...

Please let me see a moose on my vacation. This I pray to you, my Lord.

For the last 3 years in a row, I have seen moose while vacationing in Idaho. The first year, we went out searching for them. Our neighbor drove us up a logging road, and there along the side of the road, was a bull and a cow. The bull's face was so big! And we were so close to them.

Year 2, the moose came to us. My father and I were out in our little boat (rowboat with outboard motor) fishing (we left at approx. 6:00am). We'd had a rough morning with a slight wind, and no luck catching anything. Another boat (same type) was coming toward us. The guy yelled "There's 2 cows to your port." Now, when I hear cows, I think.....cows....as in ....Moo!" Not in Idaho. That means female moose. Sure enough, we look to our left and there were 2 moose swimming in the lake. They were maybe 5 car lengths from us, we could hear them grunting. We were close to the mountain side of the lake, and they headed over to the shore and disappeared into the mountain forest.

Last year, we saw a couple of moose. The first one was swimming across the lake. She got out near some houses farther down from us. I ran to the road (Lane 4), to see if I could meet her on the path. Alas, that did not happen (maybe for the best since they are HUGE!!!). The final moose was seen amongst the lily pads. He was shoulder deep, munching, eating his lunch. We were in my cousin's motor boat, there was another boat, and a jet ski hanging around watching him eat. In the picture below, the moose is in between my 2 kids eating his lunch.

So, God, if you are so inclined, I would be very happy if you would send a moose my way while I'm in Idaho. For some reason, Lord, this very large, odd-looking creature brings me much joy, excitement, and even peace. (Not to mention the fact that all my sister saw when she was out there were Quail.....hehehehe).